Thursday, March 22, 2012

Missing Emmy

Time is the only cure for grief. I keep expecting to see my little angel in so many places. Her favorite clump of clover where she liked to lay in the backyard, her pillow on the floor, her spot on the couch. When I handed out treats I expected to see her little face turned up towards me.

Oscar has been looking for her. He isn't frantic, but he keeps looking in all the likely places. Wall-E seems to know that she is not coming back. He has been my constant companion, sitting in her old spot on the couch, snug against my leg. He is a comfort. Toni Louise is oblivious. She didn't interact much with Emmy. Nothing seems to bother her and she makes me laugh with her daily antics. Comfort in a different way.

I woke early this morning with a heavy heart and took the crew out. It was raining and the temperature has dropped. I decided to go back to bed for just a bit. I climbed into bed and lay on my side and fell into a deep sleep. I came awake slowly as Toni was sniffing at my face. My belly was very warm and I reached down to pet Emmy, since that was her spot when I lay on my side. My hand found Wall-E. I was so disappointed as I came fully awake and remembered that my sweet little Emmy was gone.

It will be a long, sad day.

10 comments:

Linda O'Connell said...

Consider yourself hugged from afar and dog licked form heaven today. So sorry for your loss, Kathy.

SkippyMom said...

It's a small comfort that you do have Wall E, Oscar and TL. I know they can't replace Miss Emmy, but they count on you and love you very much.

Take care Kathy.

Mamma has spoken said...

I feel your pain and I've been there before. I still miss some of my four legged children even though I have others with me now........

joanne said...

my Gracie is losing her battle with liver cancer and it won't be long until I feel that jagged pain of her loss. Bless you dear one, may comfort and peace rain down on you from sweet Emmy up above.

Lorenza said...

I am so sorry to know about Emmy.
We understand how much you miss her.
We are thinking of you.
Take care
Lorenza and mom

Teresa - in the Middle Side of Life said...

glad that wall-e is trying to help comfort you.

Pat said...

I've been out of the loop for a few days and I had to go back and read your last post to catch up. I am so, so sorry for your loss. You did the right thing for you wouldn't want Emmy to suffer. You are a great Dog Mommy and gave Emmy a wonderful life. Emmy will greet you on the other side. I am sure of that!

Rae said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I understand how overwhelming that grief can be. Our pets are like children and their loss is just as hard on us. Sending you hugs.

Sandi McBride said...

I am feeling for you, Kathy...it's like losing a child...hugs
Sandi

Meggie said...

You have my sympathy, Kathy. The pain of losing a little dog is just about the same as losing a human- and some dogs are nicer than humans!
I dread the thought that my little Honey will one day have to go. She keeps me from insanity, and helps warm my grief sticken hours.